My sixth and thus last attempt at artificial insemination has now been performed and completed.
Unfortunately, I had to go through all six cycles, and now we have to wait and see whether the sixth attempt will be successful. There is very, very little hope for us, but at least there is some hope.
I would like to thank you all for the understanding, care and compassion you have shown us. No one likes undergoing fertility treatment, but at least you made the process less trying than it otherwise might have been.
I was always met with understanding and sympathy from the receptionists when I called in the negative test result every month, and they always had time for a brief chat. That meant a lot to me.
The nurses who did the scans were always friendly and treated an uncomfortable situation with respect and subtlety. One feels very vulnerable lying on the examination couch.
I feel very emotional, sitting back with mixed feelings. I have to admit that I feel great relief that I no longer have to inject myself with hormones, lie exposed on the examination couch or lie to my employer, etc. At the same time, I (we) obviously feel extremely dejected and disconsolate about not having achieved the long-wanted pregnancy. But now we can begin to process our “grief”, and at least we can say that we did everything we could.
Because it is a grief. Month for month, you mourn something that has never existed.
Please continue your good work, and hopefully you will help a lot of other people.
All my love,
C (wants to be anonymous)